Just for shits and giggles, I took the life score test to see if I've improved.... evidently not. Lulz.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.2
Mind:	4.9
Body:	6.3
Spirit:	5
Friends/Family:	3.8
Love:	0.8
Finance:	5.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Teehee... guess I'll make someone happy.

Heavy metal! You rock! It's mostly about the
music instead of lyrics for you...but you
channel most of the emotion through the lyrics!
Mosh pit for you! Just be careful you don't
give yourself a concussion with so much
headbanging...


What genre of rock are you?
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This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.2
Mind:	5.9
Body:	6.1
Spirit:	6.8
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	1.7
Finance:	7.6
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success. (Read more on improving your life)

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. Your body score is fairly average, which means there is room for improvement. Keep a focus on your physical health. Protect your body as it is your most valuable physical asset. Nutrition, stress reduction, and exercise are key. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances.


Sounds about right... (yes, my love life SUCKS) Having a bit of trouble with friends.... I'd say my mental health is a bit better than that. Maybe a 6.5 or a 7.

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

I've always thought I was that way.

Man, I never update this thing anymore.

So, I have a new friend now. You know who you are <3 If you still check this neglected thing that is. I should update more often.

Today seems like it's gonna be a boring day. I'm gonna go out around 8 to Best Buy, Radio Shack and maybe Borders again. I need new headphones. The ones I have for my MP3 player are breaking :/ Stupid cheap pieces of shit. Oh well. They came with the player. I didn't expect much. But I expect more than this! >:O

I need to make a good layout for this... I don't know how though. Could someone make one for me? *hopeful look* I really suck at making anything :/

I feel like a geek listening to this song... but it's so bad ass XP I've gotten into video game remixes a lot more this past month. I've downloaded a lot of stuff by The Minibosses. I wish they'd put a real CD out so I could buy it.

Well, that's all for now :P

Man... prom sure was an experience.

I looked pretty good in my tux. I had a sliver vest on. My date had a sliver and black dress, so it matched :3 She looked so beautiful... I have pictures that I'll post. I guess this journal has become more of a private one for me anyway.

We ate at prom, which was kind of nice. I had steak and some other shit. It was pretty good. Dancing was amazing though.. She's a great dancer, and she taught me. She held my hand through most of the night. That was great... I've never held hands with a girl before, heh. She got pretty tired around 11, so we sat for about an hour. She had her head down because her contacts were hurting her eyes. I had my arm around her and I was rubbing her back and shoulder for almost an hour. She seemed to like it.. she was getting pretty close to me. We shared hte last two dances together, which were both slow songs. She was pressed up against me rather nicely, and had her head on my shoulder... god, that was nice. I thought she was going to kiss me for a second. She had her lips quite near me. I think I would have died if she did that o_o; She kept looking straight into my eyes for some of the night.. she eventually said the she couldn't figure out what I was thinking about XP; Damn.. I like her so much.

Post prom was also good. It was at Savoy 16, and we saw Sin City, which wasn't very good. She fell asleep about halfway through it. Poor girl was exhausted... She put her head on my shoulder, latched onto my arm and curled up in her seat. So, I put my head on hers, put my arm around her leg, and slept too. Hehe... whenever I'd rub her leg, she'd sigh a little.. ^^ We left early because she was tired, and went to iHop for breakfast at around 3:30 in the morning XP I had eggs and ham. Pretty good.

Then... we drove home. The ride home was depressing for me. She said she currently wasn't looking for a boyfriend. That hurt... But... she seems to like me. I think that she likes me... but wants to get to know me better before she decides if she really likes me or not. I'll let you know how it goes.

Here are some pictures :3

I had my arms around her, and she was delibertly falling on me in this picture XP
http://home.insightbb.com/~ninja1822/FallingonMe2.jpg

The whole group: http://home.insightbb.com/~ninja1822/Group23.jpg

Just me in my tux: http://home.insightbb.com/~ninja1822/BestMeSmall.jpg

She's got a pretty smile it covers up the poison
That she hides she walks around in circles in my head
Waiting for the chance to break me chance to take me down
Well I see the burden you gave me
It's too much to carry it's too much to bury inside
I guess you're the only one
Nobody changes I guess you're the only one
That's still doing everything else ...
You're still the only one yeah you're still the only one
Wisdom shallow oh so peeling
Now I'm up to my ankles and I'm drowning
Away in a sea sarcastic faces familiar places
Everything that's quite the same it's all confusing ...
Amusing literally tainted a picture you've painted to me
I guess you're the only one
Nobody changes I guess you're the one
That's still doing when everything else goes down
You're still the only one
We never change faces
I guess you're the only one that's still doing
Everything else goes down
Just cause the sounds in your head
Doesn't mean it has to be in mine
Don't believe what you said still can't get it out of my mind
I've tried to find myself in approval
I've already been there already done that
It got me no where it brought me nothing
But a good place to hide in no one to confide in
Now I guess you're the only one
Nobody changes I guess you're the only one
That will never change faces
I guess you're the only one

There should be a crying emicotion ~_~

Guess this'll be another one about that damn girl. I talked to her today. I asked her why she had been so sad/mad around me for a while. Maybe it was something I was doing wrong? She just went "mm" a few times and said that nothing was wrong. Bullshit, of course. But I didn't push it any further. If she wants to tell me anything, she will. Otherwise she'll just lose me as a friend. I don't want that.... but I refuse to keep getting hurt all the time. I give her rides home every day after school, and today she fucking ditched me. I waited 10 minutes, just in case, but she never showed. Tomorrow she'll probably give me some explanation as to why she didn't show... or not. But I'm going to ask her anyway. She'll just lie. She says she hates being called a bitch... I'm not about to call her one (others have), but god damnit, she sure is acting like one.

Guess I'll just leave her alone for now.

I really can't get over this girl... Today was the worst. I didn't even feel like eating in lunch today, and that's a first. I ate my sandwhich because I know I need to eat something, but I threw everything else away. I was sitting with her and a few of her friends, but she just ignored me. Whenever I tried to go near her even to talk, she went somewhere else and talked to someone else. Eventually I just sat on a bench and stayed there until the period ended. I slept through all of my next class because I was so damn depressed.

Well... I was going to go to prom with her. Now she says that her dad doesn't want me to go with her. Supposedly he's protective.... I asked today if it would help if I met him, and she refused to even try it. She said I wouldn't understand, and that I was trying to force it out of her... I'm not. I just want to know what's wrong. Is it my fault? It probably is... I'm always fucking up with something. Prom wasn't the important thing for me anyway. I just wanted a time to be with her for a while. Maybe I just wanted the physical comfort I could have gotten? I don't know... I really don't.

Sometimes I feel like I love her and hate her at the same time. I always anticipate seeing her, but I also dread seeing her at the same time. I'm so fucked up sometimes. I'm afraid to tell her how I feel for fear of losing her as a friend too... She knows I like her (At least, I'm pretty sure she does. I know she doesn't like me anyway). I just don't know how to approach her. I'm afraid of hurting her too... I just don't know what to do.

Bleh, no one ever comments on this thing anymore.

So, I'll just bitch. I hate it when people lie to me. It makes me feel used, and it makes me wonder if they've lied about anything else... I've just been lied to so much in the past, that now it hurts a lot. If they come clean though, I forgive them. I dunno... lying is one of the things I just don't like. I'm guilty of it once in a while, but I hate, hate, hate doing it. And I always feel awful after I do it.


Off to work I go..

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Phil
2. Dr. Phil
3. NN

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Phil0106878
2. NightNinja57
3. nightninja88

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Good work ethic
2. I'm caring.
3. I'm patient with people

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I read too much into things
2. I get depressed over stupid things
3. I don't like it when someone is better than me. I feel like I have to be the best

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Welsh
3. Native American

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU (or mostly creep you out):
1. heights
2. women (They mostly confuse me, but some creep me out >.>)
3. Religious Nutjobs.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. Water
3. Someone to talk to

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Nice short sleeved dressy shirt
2. khakis
3. shoes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1. Metallica
2. Led Zeppelin
3. Nirvana

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Something Corporate-Konstantine (Only song I've cried to)
2. William Shatner-Common People
3. Metallica-Turn The Page

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Kissing (I'm 17, and never been kissed. Whyyyyy? ;_;)
2. Learning how to dance
3. sky-diving

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Trust
2. Respect (You MUST have respect for each other in a relationship)
3. Long-term (Yes, the same as you. I'm looking for a girlfriend that I could have until the end of high school. Possibly in college, although I'm probably going out of state)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I'm good looking
2. I'm more sensitive than most guys (at least, it seems that way)
3. I wish people would stop quoting Napolean Dynamite

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Long, straight hair
2. Pretty eyes (green is best... mm...)
3. Respects me.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Run the mile in 5 minutes
2. Be happy
3. Get a girlfriend

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Music
2. Reading
3. Martial Arts

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Finish my homework so I can relax
2. Get my own place and provide for myself
3. Curl up with someone and just sleep for a while...

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Surgeon
2. Forensic Investigator
3. Chef

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. China
3. Somewhere far away

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. You. (but you already have.. take it again!)
2. Bob.
3. Jesus. (I just realized the really bad joke I made here...)

mm.. today was fun. I had ACT classes in the morning (NOT fun) and then I spent the whole day with my friend. She's real fun to be with. We went to my house and played video games for a while, and then we went out to lunch. After that, we went to the mall. She took me shopping for clothes @_@ I didn't have any money, but now I have SOME idea of what I'll look decent in. Thing is, the stuff is really expensive. $70 for a SHIRT? Holy shit. Say bye bye to my next paycheck ;_; Speaking of paychecks, I need to put some stuff in my check book... don't wanna get overdrawn.

So this friend... I like her. I have for a long time now, but I never said anything because she had a boyfriend. Thing is, she showed interest in me then. She used to touch me, and wanted to be around me a lot. Now, she shows no interest in me at all. Only as a friend. Have I done something wrong? Or is she just not interested anymore? If it's the latter, is there anything I could do to get her interested in me again? I don't want to lose her friendship though. I already spend a bunch of time with her, and I talk with her a lot. Although that seems to slow down a bit too. There will be times when we hardly say a word to each other, but then there are days when we'll talk to each other non stop.

There's also another girl though. She goes to a different high school, but it's still in the same city. I've known her for about a year, and I met her through one of my friends. I liked her when I met her, and now that it seems that the first girl isn't working out for me, I've started to like her more. However, I'm still not sure. I do like the first girl more, but it seems she has no interest in me. No point in going after her unless something can change her opinion, right? Anyway, I was talking to the second girl on the phone last weekend, and she said that I should come over sometime. I'm going to call her again either tonight or tomorrow. I don't know if she just wants to be friends or not though.... She also told me she didn't have a boyfriend, but then her friend told me that she does... so I'm really not sure.

Who should I go for? The first one, who I like more, but who seems to only want to be friends? Or the second one, who I might have a slight chance with. I've never had a girlfriend before, so I really don't know how to go about anything. Or, should I go for neither of them? Having a girlfriend would certainly eat up my free time, and my money sources, but it would be totally worth it XP Prom is also coming up soon, and I'm not sure if I'm going to ask either of them, or anyone at all. It's a lot of money... They're both sophomores, so they'd have to have an upperclassmen ask them anyway. Or, should I say fuck it, and just go my Senior year? I need advice. :P

I got my grades yesterday. I'm getting 5 A's, 1 C, and 1 D. Those last two grades will come up. I'm dropping the class I have a D in. It's math, and I suck at math, so I'm dropping down to the lower level of the class. But, I'm only going to do that if it won't fuck with my schedule too much. I have it 3rd hour, so I'd either like it to still be 3rd hour, or for it to be 7th. I currently have gym 7th hour. We'll see how it works out.

Well, this is my first update in a long time, and it's pretty long. Hopefully I'll update more for you people in the future.

What would you do if I?
» I died from natural causes:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What do you think about my:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:
Would you:
» Be my friend?:
» Have sex with me
» Lie to make me feel better?:
» Spread rumors about me?:
» Keep a secret if I told you one?:
» Loan me some cash?:
» Hold my hand?:
» Take a bullet for me?:
» Keep in touch?:
» Try and solve my problems?:
» Love me?:
» Date me?:

Bleeeee...

I'm bored. There's nothing to do :/ I should go out somewhere today, but I only have around $50, and I need all of that... There's no movies out I want to see, so I'll stay in. I'm too young to go out drinking... (bleah :P) The new Exorcist movie comes out on the 20th, so I'm gonna go see it sometime around then. School starts on the 25th though... so, I think I'll see it on the 24th. Resident Evil:Apocalypse comes out September 10th... I can't wait for that, I've been waiting for the sequel since I saw the last few minutes of the first movie. I hope it's good... *sigh* I love zombie movies XD I watched Dawn of the Dead last night. The new remake, not the old one. It's pretty good :3 I love watching zombies get their heads blown off though.